Happy Birthday Benjamin! You turn 4 today……

Benjamin, Ben, Benji……..today is your 4th birthday.  Your second birthday in heaven.  And wow, did the heaven’s bring in your birthday in a spectacular way!  A lunar eclipse that turned the moon orange/red!

It’s hard to believe you were only two when you went to live with the world’s true superhero ……JESUS!  And now two birthday’s have passed.  And so on this special day that we celebrate when God brought you into our lives, I wanted to reflect and share some of the things you continue to teach me.

You were such an easy baby, just like your momma.  No colic, you weren’t fussy unless you weren’t feeling well.  We called you gentle Ben.  You were somewhat shy and unsure of people you didn’t know well and your older brother Fischer  taught you so many things, just as I am sure you are doing with your baby brother Hayes.  I remember a time when you were climbing on a box at our house in the garage and you fell off and hurt your head.  No tears from you……you got up, rubbed your head and off you went never missing a beat.  Papa John and I were always amazed with that.  Even at your young age you were fearless.  I’m so thrilled that you have an older brother and that you are now a big brother to Hayes.  As your Lolly and I can tell you sometimes being a middle child can be tough, but I am sure you are finding your place with your brothers.

And then there are those pools of blue….those amazing eyes of yours.  And you like your sweet momma, have one dimple that scores a 10 on the adorable scale!

So, my sweet Ben…….even though you weren’t with us very long, you have made such a profound impact on my life.  And even though you are not physically here with me for this part of my journey in life, you continue to be a significant force every single day.  Your life reminds me to find joy in the small things through the eyes and wonder of a two year old child.    To never forget the joy in the simple things (even a cardboard box!), your amazing laugh, and your exuberant joy.

Your birthday falls this year during Holy Week.  I’m sure the Easter celebration in heaven is amazing and I look forward to those celebrations when I get there one day.

So, to honor you on this day, I placed a memorial in the Salado Village Voice and Lexington Leader.

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And I will lay your birthday wreath……

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And here is your birthday video!

I look forward to taking your hand one day as you give me a personal tour of heaven and you share me all your favorite things to do there.   Until then, I carry you in my heart.  You have sent me crickets, lizards and baby birds that warm my heart and bring a smile to my face.  Thank you for asking Jesus to send those to me.  I look forward to many more.  Wrestle that big brother of yours and hug him for me…..kiss Hayes……and squeeze your momma tight and tell her that Nana loves her.

I will always treasure this picture.

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It is the last one I would take of you until we meet again.  Here’s to blue snow cones in heaven!  I look forward to having one with you when I get there.

I love you sweet Ben…..to the moon and back!

Nana

Music:  Sovereign by Chris Tomlin

Sovereign in my greatest joy
Sovereign in my deepest cry
With me in the dark
With me at the dawn

In your everlasting arms
All the pieces of my life
From beginning to the end
I can trust you

In your never failing love
You work everything for good
God whatever comes my way
I will trust you

God whatever comes my way
I will trust you

All my hopes
All I need
Held in your hands

All my life
All of me
Held in your hands

All my fears
All my dreams
Held in your hands

All my hopes
All I need
Held in your hands

All my life
All of me
Held in your hands

In your everlasting arms
All the pieces of my life
From beginning to the end
I can trust you

In your never failing love
You work everything for good
God whatever comes my way
I will trust you

God whatever comes my way
I will trust you

Amen…….Julie

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