This week’s blog posting is from my oldest daughter Jennifer. When you read this blog, she, her fiancee, and several family members are on their way to Maui to get married! This blog is her thoughts about this day, and experiencing this day without Lizz and the boys.
I created the video to the song “Over the Rainbow” by Israel Kamakawiwo’ole. This is an important song for us because Elizabeth chose this song to walk down the aisle with her Dad when she got married. I created this video to capture some sweet memories of our families celebrating our daughter’s weddings! Jeff, I hope these pictures of you dancing with our daughters bring back some tender memories.
Jennifer: Know that John and I will be lifting you and Keith up in prayer, as you make a covenant with God. And I don’t know if there are golden binoculars, but I know Jesus hears your prayer, and I believe you will receive “godwinks” of Lizz and the boys. Look for them. They may be in the song of a bird, a butterfly, the sound of the ocean, the sunset, or maybe even a rainbow!
Remember, always, your momma loves you to the moon and back!
Wedding week is upon us! Many of you know that I am getting married really soon. May 21st actually. I must say that I am very excited to be married to a person that is OK with me being me. But I also must admit that in all the joy of that day, there will be a bittersweet sting to it also.
A few months before Lizz and the boys went to be with Jesus, Lizz and I were all over the internet looking for the best little Tommy Bahama outfit for my ring-bearers. I think she was more excited about their outfits than I was! So much of the planning of that day included her and those little tornadoes (Fischer and Benjamin).
Lizz was a hair/make-up artist outside of being a stay at home mom. She perfected her craft, and was able to charge hefty fees for her services. And I must say, I was ECSTATIC to get her services for free on my special day! 🙂 As the wedding nears, and I find myself searching for hair and make-up artists, I am slapped back to reality that it won’t be her brushes applying make-up to my face. I had special plans for this day with her and my sister Lauren. It was going to be a great sister day…..me, Lauren and Lizz. Just like it had always been. I was hoping for a day of quality sister time, laughing at things that other people would think are crazy…..or just laugh at each other. That is just what we did throughout our lives. Through all the jokes and the laughter, it still would have been a great day with her there.
But Jesus had other plans and wanted her sooner and on this day I can’t have what I want. I know it’s a selfish request, but I’m supposed to be honest here right?!? 🙂
I heard a story once of a person that has claimed to have visited heaven several times. I do believe that God can give us glimpses into heaven – so indulge a big sister here for just a moment…..
She said that in one of her visits to heaven, that there are magnificent gold tubes of some sort. When a major life event happens in their loved ones’ lives, their loved ones’ face(s) appear on the front of these massive tubes. This is a signal to those in heaven so they can go watch what is going on. I’ve been thinking about heaven alot since my sister left us. The Bible does not give us many descriptions on heaven – but I need to believe that Lizz will see me on my wedding day. If you talk to various members of my family, you will get a different version of heaven every time. I see gold tubes that are like heavenly binoculars, Ava sees rainbow slides for Fischer and Ben to play on. My mom sees a Heaven Salon and Spa with services by Lizz.
So, since God had a different plan for Lizz and the boys, I’ve had to adjust mine for a day without her here with our family. Lisa will keep me distracted in the morning with shopping and relaxation. And then at 3 p.m. Hawaii time, my new make-up artist, Lori, will do what my sister Lizz was suppose to do and apply my make-up. I felt she needed to know about my sister, Lizz – so I shared a little about Lizz’s story. She promised she’d make Lizz proud!
At 6 p.m. Hawaii time, is the big show. I get to marry my best friend on an absolutely gorgeous beach at sunset. Dad will still walk me down the beach and Lauren will take the video of the ceremony. Dinner at the Grand Waiilea, then back to the hotel for rest before a trash-the-dress session the next morning and then an awesome vacation with family both old and new.
Jesus, your Word says that where two or more are gathered, there You will be also. I need to feel your presence on Tuesday. My hope is that there really are those large golden binoculars so that Lizz and the boys can see Ninny get married. Thank you for blessing me with a man that loves You. Thank you for a man that has seen me go from a place of hurt and sadness to a place of Great Hope! Thank you for blessing my life in the way that you have. – AMEN!
This is my prayer as I really have struggled to get through this week. The realization that Lizz won’t be there with the rest of the family is very hard for me. She was just such a huge part of all of our lives. Getting used to a “new normal” is one of the hardest – if not the hardest things for me to do.
Nonetheless, I am hopeful. I am really excited. If you are a Christ follower – I would request that you pray for me, pray for my family on Tuesday, May 21st at about 11 p.m. (wedding time in Hawaii). When we get back, you will have an update on how the day went and pictures of course!
Mahalo for your prayers and Aloha!