Today, is Benjamin Samuel Dowdy’s THIRD birthday! This year, he celebrates his first “heaven” birthday. John and my last time to watch Benjamin and his brother Fischer was on June 30, 2012 when Lizz was hosting a baby shower for Lindsey Seymour. Sam dropped the boys off to us at the City Lights Movie Theater in Georgetown and we went to see the Disney movie “Brave”. Ben sat in my lap with his candy bag that Lizz had packed for both of them from the candy bar that she made for the shower. Fischer was seated on my left and John was on my right. City Lights Theater has a playroom and after the movie, the boys wanted to stop and play. They have a turtle, fish, and bridge that kids can run, jump, and climb on……just the thing little boys love to do! I’ll never forget Ben was crawling under the bridge and started screaming. For those that never met Ben let me tell you he had one high pitched scream! And I didn’t understand what he was saying and had to ask Fischer. Of course Fischer new exactly what “quickit Nana!” “quickit” meant! “Quickit” is two year old speak for “cricket”. Ben was not to happy there was a “quickit” under the bridge! When I asked Fischer what part of the movie he liked the best he said it was when Princess Merida was riding her horse and shooting her bow and arrow. He then started asking if he could get a bow and arrow of which Ben said (because he always wanted to be doing what Fischer was doing!) “ME TOO! ME TOO!”.
After the movie and jungle gym play time we went to Shakes in Georgetown for snow cones. And in true super hero style Fischer chose to have a green snow cone for the Incredible Hulk and Benjamin chose blue for Captain America! Below are the last pictures I would take of the boys.
We drove them them back to Salado where the shower was wrapping up and due to the large number of people there Ben clung to John’s leg (he could be very shy) and Fischer ran up to his mommy to tell her all about their adventures of the day. We hugged and kissed them good-bye and I would have never believed that 30 days later they would be in heaven.
Shortly after Lizz and the boys went to heaven, I had a dream where Lizz and the boys came to visit me. The focus of my dream was not Lizz but about the boys. We were laying on my bed and Lizz was on my left with her head propped up on her elbow. She never said a word in the dream but she had that amazing smile of hers. It was the smile of a mom that relished in the joy of her two little boys. Fischer was down at my feet doing what Fischer always did…..constant movement! It was some of his wrestling moves his Dad had taught him and he was holding my ankles down and laughing. Ben was up at the head of the bed with Lizz and I and with his little pudgy fingers and his so sweet voice he kept saying: “tickle, tickle, tickle” and giggling as he tickled my ear. And as quickly as they came to me in my dreams they were gone.
Ben loved the superheroes, just like his big brother. His favorites were Thor (Ben pronounced it “Tor”, “Tor”), Spiderman (Ben would holler “Man” Man” when he saw Spiderman) and Captain America. As I said at their home going on July 30, 2012, Ben, Fischer and Hayes get to live with the TRUE SUPER HERO! JESUS has overcome!
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.” John 14:1-3
And so, I cling to Jesus’ command here to not let our hearts be troubled and He WILL come back and take us to be with Him and I look forward to seeing Benjamin Samuel Dowdy, his Mommy and two brothers again! AMEN! I cling to the hope and the promise of God’s sovereignty that Ben’s life was just as it should be…..and through that life those that knew Ben were changed just as mine was.
As is my custom for their birthday, I have created a video for Ben to honor his amazing life and to remember….always, always remember. The song is “Just Have to Wait” by Steven Curtis Chapman. This is from his Beauty will Rise album that Steven wrote after the loss of his young daughter, Maria Sue Chapman.
“Just Have To Wait”
But I, oh, I’ll just have to wait
I can’t wait to hear your mama laugh
But I, oh, I’ll just have to wait ‘
And I can’t wait to dance with you again
Oh, I, oh, I’ll just have to wait ‘
And I can’t wait to see your sisters play
And I just have to wait ‘
The words and sentiment of this song are perfect! I hope you enjoy the birthday video of Benjamin Samuel, dimples just like his mommy and oh those beautiful blue eyes…….
To Ben: I can’t imagine what my life would have been without you in it. Even if it was only 836 days. Oh how I wish it had been more. But in those 836 days you changed my life little one. Please wrestle your brother down for me and give him a hug and snuggle with your mommy for me and tell her I love and miss her! I’m sure you are having an amazing birthday celebration in heaven! I’m sure there are amazing playgrounds and activities for celebrations such as this! I can’t wait to hear all about it one day when I get there….until then, I just have to wait. I love you! Nana (Julie)
To Lolly (aka my daughter Lauren): As your sister Lizz use to tell us all, you could always get the boys to grin and laugh! That is very obvious in these pictures of you and Ben. He LOVED his LOLLY! I love you! Mom